Normally, I run and hide from the scale but I wanted to
share with you all my weight loss struggles, achievements and road blocks. Reason being, if you google weight loss, you
usually see the same thing; “6 months
later”, “1 year later”, “9 months later”.
Yet what actually happens in between those months is where I have failed
in the past. I think it’s where most of
us have failed, especially for those of us struggling with weight loss.
Every Friday I weigh in and tell you where I am at. Well, today didn’t produce the numbers I was
hoping to see. Last week I weighed in at
211, today…..215. Seeing a 4 lb gain
when you know your diet and exercise that week has been butt kicking is like
being hit by a truck filled with twinkies…..twinkies I didn’t flippin eat. This is the “in between” I am talking
about. The set back everyone faces. The point where I feel so defeated, confused
and upset that I might as well just eat what I want and stop working out since
I am going to gain weight anyway. At
times, I even took it a bit further and simply starved myself until I reached
the weight loss numbers I was hoping to achieve. Well, no more of that nonsense.
Seeing those numbers, I still couldn't help but to immediately start beating my brain
with the million dollar question. How did
this happen? My diet this week has been
clean. Breakfast, eggs and spinach. Lunch, can of tuna. Snacks, raw carrots and almonds. Dinner, eggs, spinach and beef. (I even ate grass fed beef.) Crossfit, worked out 4 days. (Hitting prescribed weight more than once.) I am even able to fit in my old jeans now. So where is this 4 lb gain coming from?
There could be a ton of reason as to why the scale is saying
what it is saying; recovering from bronchitis, muscle gain, change in diet for
higher iron intake, being a girl, stars weren’t in line, and so on. Point is, I know I did right by my body this
week. My diet, clean and healthy. Workout, 4 days with prescribed weights. Water intake, one gallon per day. Sounds pretty good, right?
As much as I would like an answer, I know I won't get one. The question, the numbers, the scale will simply drive me insane. So this time, I am letting it go. I'm not ready to give up. In fact, I am ready for the next WOD. That is how much I have come to love crossfit. Never thought I would love any workout, ever,
but this is different. The challenges,
the people, the signs of muscle definition, 5 weeks and pants are much looser,
old jeans can now be buttoned and the cherry on the cake…showing someone your
WOD and saying “I did that!”.
Regardless of what the scale said today and how deeply it cut me, I will continue to weigh in every Friday and share my
numbers with you. Who knows, I might be
a “9 months later” huge weight loss story. But even so, I really feel the events in between are just as important. It’s those in between moments where I feel
failure is created. Yet this time I won’t
let the scale throw me off track. No way! My love for crossfit simply won’t let
me.
Numbers shouldn't drive you, how you feel should inspire you.
Anna Dubya
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